I don't care anymore

I don't want anyone to know who this is. This is my second tumblr account. Too many people knew about my other one and I had to get another. I curse a lot on here, but not in person. I'm nice on the outside but if you could hear the thoughts in my head, I'm sure I'd have no friends. I'm so different and I hate it. Half the time, I don't even care. I'm not living... just existing. You all will probably think I'm depressed beyond belief but in all honesty, I'm not. I just put the negative shit out here. I've come to learn: no expectations = no disappointments.
~ Monday, November 1 ~
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 My friends are so boring. Only 2 of them have had their first kiss. We’re all turning 17 soon. HOW LAME IS THAT?! Like come on people. It’s so fucking annoying. I’m not a virgin… seriously people.

Their idea of “fun” is sitting around and having a movie night. I WANT TO PARTY! All of last year I was a party girl. I went out every fucking weekend to a party. I completely miss the old me. I miss the boyfriend, the friends I had, the parties I went to…just everything. And now, I get looked down upon whenever I talk about it. Because of them, I don’t even know who I am anymore. I don’t even know what I like or dislike. I don’t know what I want or who I want to be. I’m literally living in a state of “i don’t know.”

I need to get the fuck out of here. Like as soon as possible. I really don’t even care about any of you guys. I just want out. I want to start over. And never look back.